8 mile Jackass!

Ahh. Just two weeks into NOT going to that damn place has its benefits... Nike says I'm less vengeful now, which is absolutely normal, considering the fact that I return home every weekend from college like I'm starving for blood.

Besides the fact that I'm pissed off at each and every one of the 60 something jackasses for not remembering my birthday...(Yeah, its a serious thing here, considering the fact that they remembered every others' while recording em in a register n giving surprise parties to them), while each and almost every one of my dear old buddies called me up or text me that day.

Now you may have all figured out I'm NOT the popular dude at college... I could be :D, but I chose not to be. After all, it's simply not worth it. ;)

Unlike the prejudgment of a college a boy possesses, this college makes it sure you regret even putting it up on that allotment form. And boy, oh boy, I'm sure to get stoned next year by my seniors, if better, my own classmates, for some reason exclusive to Kerala northies which I'm seriously unaware of till now... yep...no clue at all.

First of all I'm total at exact Trivandrumite, I spent most of my first 4 years at Kollam... I hope now you get from where I inherited the slang... and still, if you saw you come from TVM somewhere in North Kerala, you're gone... completely!

It's really puzzles me that people at Kottayam are brought up to think its a metro, even bigger than Mumbai, when it doesn't even have a Corporation!!! It's still a fuckin municipality!

And you people know my nature, I always have an evil eye of finding faults, in the system, in every person, et cetara, et cetara, but the northies just can't stand it.

I was about to kill my older self at the time I started at this shit place, and was successful even, up to an extent at last, but then I thought of the people who were always with me, mom, dad, bro, behnas, everyone... they wanted the real me, and here I was, changing for some pack of losers to get to their good eye! I could have started drinking at any moment I wished to, and then go on to sleep on the football ground like those 5 celebrated beinchoths of the college, but I chose not to. Same goes for smoking. If restraining from that makes me a loser, then I'm better off being one.

Life has hit a lil harder on me, for the past 3 years. Maybe It was because of the reckless boy I was in my younger years. But then that was me.

I'm a person who is affected by people around me. People around me change me, so I do my best to stay away from what I chose not to become. And topped with all that, I have a really really bad temper, I impulsively change into something that even I dont even recognise. So I do my very best to get back home at weekends... even if it kills my wallet.

Still it seems I'll have to go next month or so to pay my fees in advance, and to confirm my admission to 3rd sem, which I'm really not looking forward to.

Sorry, but I just couldnt stop myself from writing this one up.